F*** IT!!! it's no use explaining!!!
wat the hell is wrong with the two of u??? ever since i joined dance, i had NV heard a word of approval from the two of u. sure, during family gatherings, u always tell relatives how i'm so involved in dance and stuff...but it's a freaking hell of a diff story during conversations back home!
jus how many times do the 2 of u have to associate homosexuality with dance? how many times do u have to bring it up almost immediately after i bring dance in our conversations? how many time do u need to keep denying tt u associate homosexuality with dance? i'm bloody pissed bout it and this has REALLY gotta STOP!!! F*** IT...
i was jus trying to build on our conversation in the car, so i decided to share bout my dance class yest. and i told u guys tt the choreographer told me tt i shld stretch more to improve my flexibility. and pretty much similar to the last dance conversation in the car, dad, u said, "aiya, dun need to be too flexible la. cos when u're too flexible, u'll start to walk a bit sissy-ish".
tt was when i decided to tell the two of u how it really hurts me when u quickly talk bout homosexualism everytime i talk about dance. and tt it is a major conversation killer. i mean, wat's the freaking connection btwn flexibility and walking sissy-ish??? then the 2 of u got really defensive and started trying to convince me tt u jus mentioned NOTHING bout homosexualism...trying to convince me tt wat u really meant was being flexible would make one walk more femininely and less masculinely. i argued tt gymnasts, IN NO WAY, walk in a feminine manner. then u said tt "gymnasts are totally different". i argued back "but u JUST associated flexibility with being sissy!!!" and when u argued back "no, i did not associate flexibility with being sissy" (pls refer to previous paragraph, last line.)WTH!!! the whole argument last bout 3 mins in the car.
it was obvious my parents were caught contradicting their own words, but did not want to accept the fact they were wrong. jus like u understand tt homosexuality is a lifestyle, NOT an action, but in my case, u're willing to make an exception. i starting tearing up after the conversation cos i was very deeply hurt by their unncessary connotative comments. it jus hurt so badly...and i felt it really ironic cos dad and i were talking to my uncle and my cousin bout dance. my uncle aunt and cousin go for salsa classes and stuff, so we were talking bout dance. and the way dad was involved in the conversation seemed as if he had grown to accept dance. but now, i'm jus really disappointed in him....
sigh
cal le buckaroo
jus how many times do the 2 of u have to associate homosexuality with dance? how many times do u have to bring it up almost immediately after i bring dance in our conversations? how many time do u need to keep denying tt u associate homosexuality with dance? i'm bloody pissed bout it and this has REALLY gotta STOP!!! F*** IT...
i was jus trying to build on our conversation in the car, so i decided to share bout my dance class yest. and i told u guys tt the choreographer told me tt i shld stretch more to improve my flexibility. and pretty much similar to the last dance conversation in the car, dad, u said, "aiya, dun need to be too flexible la. cos when u're too flexible, u'll start to walk a bit sissy-ish".
tt was when i decided to tell the two of u how it really hurts me when u quickly talk bout homosexualism everytime i talk about dance. and tt it is a major conversation killer. i mean, wat's the freaking connection btwn flexibility and walking sissy-ish??? then the 2 of u got really defensive and started trying to convince me tt u jus mentioned NOTHING bout homosexualism...trying to convince me tt wat u really meant was being flexible would make one walk more femininely and less masculinely. i argued tt gymnasts, IN NO WAY, walk in a feminine manner. then u said tt "gymnasts are totally different". i argued back "but u JUST associated flexibility with being sissy!!!" and when u argued back "no, i did not associate flexibility with being sissy" (pls refer to previous paragraph, last line.)WTH!!! the whole argument last bout 3 mins in the car.
it was obvious my parents were caught contradicting their own words, but did not want to accept the fact they were wrong. jus like u understand tt homosexuality is a lifestyle, NOT an action, but in my case, u're willing to make an exception. i starting tearing up after the conversation cos i was very deeply hurt by their unncessary connotative comments. it jus hurt so badly...and i felt it really ironic cos dad and i were talking to my uncle and my cousin bout dance. my uncle aunt and cousin go for salsa classes and stuff, so we were talking bout dance. and the way dad was involved in the conversation seemed as if he had grown to accept dance. but now, i'm jus really disappointed in him....
sigh
cal le buckaroo
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