feeling low and emo

i hate it when i lose my keys and look like a damn fool in front of others. i hate it when i'm feeling stressed and being unable to facade my negative feelings. i hate it when the damn pagaent organisers screw up everything and treat us performers like dirt-S***!~! i hate it when people dont take control of their situations, and i find that i'm no different. i hate it when i'm feeling down, spreading my emotions to people close to me. i hate it when i'm overwhelmed and show a tear or two to people around me. i hate it when my close friends see my emotional weakness, when i cant control my feelings. i hate it when i'm emotionally down, and have to show my vunerability to them. i hate it when the friends whom i TRULY LOVE gets harassed by some people. i hate it when my close friends are hurt, and i cant do anything bout it. i hate to see my close friends break down, cos i sometimes feel helpless being unable to help them. i hate it when i cant help them, that it affects me so much i become on the verge of tears. i hate it when i think all day, n still be unable to get productive with my essay. i hate it when i left my watch at Supper Inn. i hate being looked downed upon by other people. i hate the feeling of being lost, not knowing what to do. i hate it tt i am unable to focus on my work, procrastinating and suddenly realising tt i have not enough time to do it. i hate it when people dun give a damn bout wat i say, thinking wat they say is of a higher wavelength. i hate it that i'm yearning for a love that wont work out.

in fact, i hate people who match the above comments, and i hate it that they all suit me right now. WORST OF ALL, i hate it that it all happened in just the past 3 days...
F*** TO EVERYTHING AND MYSELF!@!

a very depressed buckaroo.......................