save the last dance...

Sometimes i wonder if everything is in my own hands
Lord, what have u in store for me, to dance or not to dance?
The disappointments in life are sometimes hard to bear
When expectations that are met are either over there, or NOWHERE!
Am I able to improve with what I have now?
Am i able to try?
Or should I care not a heck, and continue living this lie?
The encouragements I have received are far and beyond,
But when it came to when it mattered, they were all gone.
I kinda wish the souls around me were better with ears,
Many times i've stoned in bed, laying bare my tears.
But who ever hears, and who ever notices?
The nostalgic bonds i have made from last year,
Some are now stale, a number now in SHATTERS!
OH WHY! Why this change in me this year?
My stronger PASSION for dance doesnt seem to bring me closer.
Could it be genre? Could it be style?
And also, have I been dancing awfully all this while?
The question remains on where my heart lies:

It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give.
And it's the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live...

And as I end of these poetic lines,
A tear trickles from my eye.
Guide me Lord, oh Guide me
To dance or not to dance...

sigh...
cal le buckaroo...