Re: Mee Siam Mai Hum Mayhem (updated ver.)

here's at least smth to cheer some ppl up!

cal le buckaroo

feeling all messed up! dammit

tonight was just an awful night. jus when u tot u had it rite, jus when u know every step counts, jus when u know 20frens in the audience have paid good money to watch a performance...i had to stuff up!!! TWICE! i was so pissed with myself i actually had resorted to using the Fs again. dammit. y did it have to happen on a FRIDAY? didnt everything go smoothly on thur? was it the cameras? or pressure cos most of my frens came to watch? and it wasnt jus me. it happened to a lot of ppl. a lot of us were jus stoned after the performace and a number of us cried. now when ppl are gonna see the dvd, it's gg to be this shitty performance tt shows. the least i could do is the strive harder for tml, but no way it can make up for the permanent damage done tonight. i'm so sorry flare!!

it was also a really rough week. full of anger and hatred. was burning inside me and i hated it when i wasnt allowed to let the anger outta my system. i'm one who hardly ever gets angry, but when i do, i get awfully fierce. well, i learnt nv to be too trusting to some ppl. they jus dun deserve ur trust and need to be treated like kids. although i've forgiven a number of ppl this week, damage's still done, n tt takes time to deal with. but a good lesson learnt.

n now with my back like tt, i wonder how long more it takes b4 it finally snaps. with the sudden bursts of muscle spasms, like wat i'm experiencing now, it's getting hard to do lifts or poses with awkward lines. let's jus hope the disc doesnt protrude out any further than it shld. but i guess this is part of the life of a dancer. cant have one without the other.

two nites gone,
one more to go,
lessons learnt from mistakes made.
trying hard to pick me up,
after curtains closed and lights had fade.

...flaredance, hoooohaaaaah....sigh

a frustrated,
caleb le buckaroo...

pre-production party and a LOOOOONNNNNGGGG weekend

it was a really long weekend...(did i mention tiring too?). but it was FUN FUN FUN!!! loved Flare Pre-Production Party!!! honestly, how would life be w/out flare??? finally got a chance as well as a reason to dress up smart and prim..ahahhaaa, had to lengthen my suit and buy a dry-clean-only formal pants for it. but it was all worth. shopping IS necessary after all!!! was really great seeing everyone looking beautiful (or MORE beautiful...have to becareful with my choice of words) and of cos, dashing too. food was good, but really pathetic portions, waiters were definitely gay and the wines were terrible. but hey, it's e communion of the flare-family tt counts, yea? here r some of the better pics i took.


this is definitely my favourite one (my dance partner too!!!)

Jel...looking as elegant as ever! this is her fav pic too...YAY!! too bad 'someone' had to lamp post btwn us!!! i'll get u for this junni!

hahaa, we look like we jus came from work. we're all gonna miss u cindy! Happy Bdae too

Dun mess bout, UNCLE MAFIAS are ard! YO...!

in the words of Joey from FRIENDS, "Hey, how you doo-ing?"

Anyway, think the trio of Suz, Aaron and XY deserve all praise esp thru their crazy schedules in planning this. u guys nv fail to disappoint! THANKS HEAPS GUYS!!!

of cos, drama awaits in the day ahead. had yum cha with vicky, ty and gang on sat. finally had the chance to meet them. so rare to find a same free slot in our schedules man. anyway, ltr i was gg to join chor ing's cell tt sat but was at max breners with ty and vicky first. then we got a phone call from chor ing saying tt sarah had sliced her finger in a freak accident. we got her to the hospital and man, the cut was deep and BLOODY!!! was really gross. n God noes how much i hate the sight of blood. tendon was sliced, had an operation today and it'll take bout 6 weeks to regain full finger strength and motion. will be praying for u my dear friend. jus bug gayl and hongs for anythin..muahahaa. n today i found out tt another friend fractured his hand for some reason which i dun think i shld say...but operation will be scheduled on wed. man, it really made me think, if i lose temporal motion of one limb, how on earth would i be able to make it for dance production? freak accidents haapen so easily. the tot still scares the hell outta me.

anyway, i've also learnt how funny the feeling of love can play tricks on our emotions!!! been so confused. one can have a nice time out with someone one night, then be ignored for no apparent reason. then when we meet again, we talk as if there was no awkwardness and become playful with each other and laugh together. GOD help me!!! ah well..

oh, and finally today the usual flare gang n i went to watch "step-up"!!! the best acting in a dance movie since centrestage (though centrestage still kicks ass more!!!). the steps were all so cool. nv tot of a ballet/jazz/contemp/hiphop combination b4. of cos, such a great day out had it's downside. the ever-amusing tsih ern was happily talking and laughing and muching on strawberries in the theatres and suz started getting unwelcomed ideas for her piece. pls spare kel, bud and i...ahhaha!!!

okiez...this was a really long blog (tt's y it's in SMALL FONT!!!)
gotta prepare for sch..sigh...

caleb le buckaroo